I am freaking the fuck out right now.
It hit me about an hour ago that tomorrow will be the first day that T-Boogie is left with a stranger, and I can't handle it.
I tried to bake... still anxious.
I drank a beer... still anxious.
I cried for 20 minutes, took a long hot shower, and gave myself a hand massage...
Still freaking the fuck out.
I just don't know what I was thinking, to trust this Nanny to watch my Angel, I mean, she's a freaking KID. I don't know how I tricked myself into this, but right now, this instant, I'm too freaked out to even go downstairs and tell her the things she needs to know for tomorrow.
So instead, I'm up here blogging.
Fuck, fuck, fuck.
I am so sorry for the language, but my hands are shaking I'm so scared right now. I keep running through my head all the things that could happen, all the things that could go wrong that I would never forgive myself for, and I am just freaking out right now.
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